I ask myself....

Have you ever wished for something, worked for something and really know that you deserved it and then not get it? Have you ever seen less competent people surpassing you? Have you ever let your expectations rise so high, that you yourself know it is impossible to fulfill them? Have you ever felt so bad, that you lost all feeling itself? Have you ever felt so let down, that you lose your faith itself? Have you seen your loved ones ever walk past you, without even giving you as much as a glance? Have you looked on unable to explain your feelings and wishing the other person would simply understand them? Have you wished to do something and then just held back?.....

Midnight Ponderings

It is midnight and I am at home.:) Yes, I know it is a nice thing, especially for hostellers like me. Anyway it is time for our annual family get-together, so am home.
First things first. The previous 2 weeks were over in a flash. My economics presentation was very good and beautifully made(it is my blog after all). But as it was mine, there was bound to be some minor glitch in it. I misspelt my name. Shakespeare may say as to "What's in a name?", but still it is my name. The prof didn't notice and now I have a new name. Apart from that, the presentation was simply fantabulous.
Then the test series came and also Valentine's day, which were both disappointments, and the less said about them the better it is.
So the best part is that I have taken a week long hiatus from college and come home. I am catching up on all the bickerings and fightings with my brother. And my mom has forbidden us both from sitting in the same room without her supervision.:) (Imagine, my bro and I are old enough to vote, drive a car and even get married!) And time has travelled back and I have again become a crybaby(have complained about my bro, atleast a zillion times in the past 4 days). But my bro is no angel either.
So am having fun. And I have just found out, that my apple does have a touchpad. I know I must be ashamed of myself. For the past one year, I went about telling everyone otherwise. But then, "To err is human".
Bon Nuit!

Brrrrrrr.............

It is cold...real cold today. I managed to get up from my hot cosy bed and go to class. I captured a picture of my hostel at 9 in the morn.I know it is foggy.

I was trying to take some more beautiful pics due to which I even became late for class. I sat through a whole hour of powder metallurgy, only to learn in the end, that I will not be given attendance.:(
Any way it snowed nearby, so obviously it is going to get colder. Brrrrr........

Who to blame?

Its the new year, a new trip but the circumstances remain the same. For the interested, let me elaborate. It is the time for the annual magazine trip, and for the past two years, the equations has remained the same. The girls, first of all, wish to go an overnight trip. Everyone agrees but all's well does not always end well. In the end, the girls back out, leaving the guys to enjoy their freedom.
Analysing the reasons as to why girls don't go, is a difficult task. Parents generally don't agree. They have their own reasons. Some of them do agree, but ultimately seeing the minuscule number of girls, forbid their daughters from going. I don't even wish to go into the details of why they do so. I don't wish to blame them, as they would have be having valid reasons.
Next, coming to the guys in the group. Not their mistake, after all we let them down. But I do wish they would understand that we don't do so on purpose. The memory about our not going on the previous trip is still fresh in our minds, and we have a new situation to add to it. I don't blame them, but it would be better if they were a bit more sympathetic about it. We do try our best to coax our parents.
So, who should we blame? Should we blame ourselves for wanting to go on a trip? This is a question which will yield no answer.